I can’t answer for OP, but constantly being pressured to reconsider is exhausting, and heartbreaking. It’s also hard to believe that all the “updates” about how your estranged family members are doing are innocent. Also, every word you share has to be carefully filtered so your hurtful (potentially boundary challenged family members, who so far have proven they DGAF about your POV and act “confused” about the estrangement even though you explained it fifty thousand times and they argued that your feelings are wrong before you had to cut ties for your own sanity seem to hear everything that comes to them secondhand) anyhow these people are ruiners who think nothing of intrusive behavior. So you get too tired from the circus and most people choose to move away if they can. Children who estrange from parents have to move away from their homes mostly.