It is deeply disturbing and scarring to have been raised by people like this, and to have been raised in a culture like this. Understanding firsthand what the lived experience is and trying to clarify the experience/warn others is frustrating bc they mostly don’t understand or believe it.
I gave a lot of thought to the stories in the Bible, and in particular the stories about God. I don’t understand why we’re supposed to be so forgiving when he had to rape a 12 yo virgin and then brutalize his own child bc Adam ate a fruit. I take comfort in listening to Atheist podcasts, where recovering Fundies and Mormons keep with one another and stay informed about voting issues.